Desire The last chapter

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for the ones liking this story espectially digna and meena, so sorry girls, I can't keep writing updates and giving my energy on this ff while there are only few people who are reading it, I had to end it here, thank u for ur support till now, it's too much for me <3

*Desire 16*

                                                             The last chapter

They spend so much time in the bath tub

First, he spends so much time loving her…so slowly…

 he washed her hair slowly and softly making her relax and then…he washed all her body with gel shower

His hands all over her body were insisting and touching her in the right places…

Her nipples were swollen and heavy…

His hands are strong and she could feel that he knew her body, now, maybe more than she does…

She wants to beg him to take her but she just bitted her lip to retain her moans…when he leaned and starts kissing all over her chest and tummy …

-look at me…

He lifted her and she gasped feeling his rough skin against her soft one, he kissed her nape…and then licked the area behind her ear…

She also leaned to hide her in the hook of his neck…the ticklish sensation…his protective hold and the warm bathroom…were playing so much tension with her senses…

-Ar…

-for you only…I can make love…like that

He smirked answering her previous question and surprising her again…

-I can do it slowly…too…

He takes her lips harshly to kiss her …he couldn’t change his kisses too…when it comes to her…he wants to kiss her lips possessively

-just say yes, khushi!

He said again

She looked at him…

-I can’t…

Alright, he really wants to understand her, she’s jealous and possessive, just like him, then, why she can’t say yes to the marriage…it’s the only way to control the people around them!...but maybe what he’s feeling for her is not the same that she feels for him and this thought made him suddenly nervous and angry…

He puts her down softly

He washed the soap on him and then, nervously, he takes the towel and gets out of the bathroom

He was angry that after all what happened here, in this bathroom and all what he said to her, she’s talking like this…

He left the bedroom as well and went downstairs…

There is no one in the farmhouse, even the servants are not there because he ordered so and this  is better…he so wants to spend some time alone…

Khushi also washed fast…wearing the first cloth she finds on the bed and that was his shirt, she went also downstairs to join him…

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He was just acting so normal, working on his laptop, she doesn’t know how he finds clean clothes here, he was wearing a grey t-shirt and black pants, he looked younger and more handsome with his wet hair

-Arnav…

He doesn’t look at her and there is only silence for some minutes…

-Arnav…are you angry?

He doesn’t answer…and it was clear how much he’s angry even if he’s acting like he’s not…

She learned again all her courage…

She walked towards him and sits on his lap, suddenly and puts her arms around his neck

Surprised, he looks finally straight into her eyes

-I didn’t refuse your request…I’m asking only for time…let me tell you that both of us is not ready for this possessive decision of yours…it’s ok, if you feel really ready for this, then, you have to answer this question…do you love me?

She doesn’t give him the time to answer and she added instantly:

-you don’t know…and this, is scaring me, Arnav…try to understand me…my feelings…all what I lived with you…I give you all and what are you asking me is just…scaring me…you took this decision during one night…what about tomorrow? I mean the future...what if we got married and then next moment, you will have enough of me, my body, you will change your mind and you will leave me…

She said looking worried and lost

He looked at her intensively and then

-yes!

He answered

-huh?...yes, you’re ok with what I said?, see…I’m right! Haan?

She asked with the feeling that he doesn’t really heard all what she said

-yes, I love you khushi!

He said looking straight at her hazel eyes…he said it, like this…like it was nature and that she doesn’t see it!!!

He lifted her off his lap and made her sit next to him on the sofa and then he stands up…

Khushi is little trembling, hearing his confession…she felt all embarrassed that she said all those words to him…but her heart is all satisfied for the first time of her life…she needs to hear those words from his mouth…but now when he said that, she’s like a statue, unable to move or make any sound…but after that, she looked up at him…he’s looking the angrier now, taking his phone and taping some mails…

She feels like giggling…but she knew that it will make him devilishly angry…but this situation is really awkward the way he confessed so fast and walked away to tape on his phone…

He looked at her…

Finally?

She thought, retaining a smile

-you don’t have anything to tell me?

He asked angrily

She nodded negatively

She wants to taste his patience but she doesn’t know that she’s messing with ASR…

He walked like a predator towards her and then holding her forearm; he makes her stand up and pulled her towards him

He leaned and she thought that he will catch her lips for a kiss…but he didn’t…he’s breathing hard and he looked straight at her eyes

-then, now, you have no decision to make, we will get married tomorrow!

She bitted her lower lip and looked down

-I’m serious, khushi…tomorrow!

She puts her finger against his lips and then looked up at him

-you’re…making so many decisions so fast…can’t you please give me some time to…

-how much time?

He cuts her

-one minute…

She said softly

-khushi!

He said as he can’t wait to hear her say yes to him or say that she loves him too but nothing comes up with her…

She looked straight at his eyes…

-you said you love me and that’s…I need time to assimilate this fact in my mind

-is it so difficult?

-yeah…it is!...

She breathed deeply trying to control her heart beats…

She looked at him deeply

-I think that…I love you too

-you think?

She nodded

-it means you’re not sure about it?

-no!...my heart is biting so fast when you’re around and it beats even faster when you confessed your love to me

He smirked

-stop confusing yourself! Ok?...I will give you time to think about all this…I will prepare something to eat for both of us and you think!

She was about to talk but he gestured her to not

She knew that he starts to understand her point and she relaxed in between his arms…

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When she wakes up, khushi was really hungry, she doesn’t knew when she slept in Arnav’s arms but when she opens her eyes, she finds herself in the sofa and Arnav wasn’t there

But he has covered her with a so soft plaid…

She stands up when she heard sounds coming from another room and she runs to search Arnav…

He was in the kitchen

And he was all busy making sandwiches…

Khushi smiled again and she walked so slowly behind him and hugged him suddenly

Arnav felt her against his back

-you’re hungry?

-a lot

-it’s ready…I make sandwiches!

-thank you

She kissed his shoulder and took a look at what he’s doing…it looks yummy…

-you’re my favorite chef!

-oh really?

-really…

He turned to give her sandwich

-take a sit and have it!

Khushi nodded…

-and you?...you won’t eat?

He doesn’t answer, he just lifted her on the top of the table

-eat it, I made it for you

Khushi starts devouring her sandwich

-hmm

-you like it?

-I love it, thank you

-khushi! You don’t have to thank me!

He looks at her intensively

She nodded…

He looks at the ring on her finger and smiled…that was like it’s made for her finger…

-how much I slept?

She asked

-less than an hour…

-I don’t know when I slept; I was in your arms

-my arms…are perfect for you

She looked at him and bitted in her sandwich

-and you love what I cook…you love my family

He continued

-I want to spend my lifetime with you!

She said finally

-yes!

She added

-yes and I love you too and I want you to make love to me, to make sandwiches for me, to let me sleep in your arms and then cover me, take care of me and that for the lifetime!

There is silence and then Arnav smirked

-you’re such an egoist, come here!

He said lifting her in his arms and capturing her lips for a so long kiss…

Desire 15 long update ;)

shah 123 and digna dhimmer, sorry girls for taking so much time to update, but here a long one, hope you will like

Desire 15

"I never Knew what  I wanted until I looked into your eyes"

There is kind of desire which transform your life upside down, take your breath away, make you so impendent to that person…

Such emotion which dominate you fully and you can’t resist…

Time would never count, others don’t even make difference for you, the object of your desire will take your all your attention, your sanity…

You’re nothing…you’re nothing without that object of desire…the person who would gain you,  own you, soul and mind

Arnav admired a sleeping khushi…

She has quickly dozed off, after a so hard and long day…

He admired her body which is not really covered by the sheet or any cloth

His eyes could see every parcel he has violently kissed and possessively loved…the marks of his teeth everywhere

The back of his hand caresses now her soft tummy and then all over her smooth legs

He felt so weak before such a perfect beauty…and sorry because he made this perfect milky baby skin turn to red at some place but he likes it…he just adores the fact he’s marking her…as His

Desire consumed him, in the past, because he wanted to possess her, to have her, to physically control her but now…now that he has her, that he has it all from her…it wasn’t enough!

He wants her for good!

He wants everything

Not only this body

Not only this beauty

Not only her under him in just a bed

But he wants her…HER!

Khushi Gupta

The thought of the marriage wasn’t that seductive, until he discovered how this solution would give her to him…legally, finally, totally!

He wasn’t ready to accept her denial for his ask…

He just shuts her up and commanded her to sleep after their session and their conversation

Now, he regretted it, he wants to wake her up to listen to her approval on their marriage

He couldn’t understand why she said no to him

He can’t understand khushi’s point of view

Khushi considering his demand as a game, she thought that he’s playing with her and her emotions

He understands this

He, himself is not understanding what stands behind his quick decision

But this marriage seems to be urgent for him, somehow

Simply, because…yeah, he couldn’t accept the idea of another woman being his wife or another man taking khushi off him because he would be her husband in place him, that’s hell impossible to happen!!!

Only this thought was enough to make him insane and he knew how much his nani is not stopping arranging those stuffs to him, Anjeli but also for khushi…

Two days ago he discovered a conversation of Nani with some priest…

She’s really thinking seriously about his marriage but always she’s thinking about a good arranged marriages, finding two grooms: one for khushi one for Anjeli

But he would probably kill the man who will think…just think to have her or even to touch one inch of her

What’s happening to you, Arnav Singh Raizada?

He scolded himself

This extreme desire and possession frightened him, also…

It’s insane!

Just insane…

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It was late in the morning when khushi opens her eyes

First thing to notice is that Arnav wasn’t next her in bed…

She rubbed her eyes to see clear in the room

And felt something heavy on her finger…

She took a quick look at it when she discovered something is shining around it…around her ring finger to be clear, there is a really big diamond…it shined like never…

Her heart skipped a beat…

It was officially the very beautiful engagement ring she ever saw and it was around her finger!

This man!

This man!

What should she do with him??

She gets of the bed to discover she’s wearing nothing but the sheet around her, she immediately went to search him

He was on the living room

Working hard on his laptop

The Bluetooth phone was on  his ear

He was talking with some customer or something

When she appeared, he looks up at her and his eyes scanned her from head to bottom

She’s angry

He’s waiting for this reaction

They didn’t decided anything together but still he chooses the ring at night, sent the picture of it to his men and just this morning he received it and puts it right on her finger

She comes so fast and she closed his laptop by one gesture

-what’s this?

She said showing him the ring still on her finger

He thought she will throw it on his face

Yes, she’s just trying to get it off but couldn’t…

It’s little smaller than her finger size…he did that on propose

 it’s good, She will never be able to take it off without his help!

Hmmm

He comes closer and stopped her hysteric behavior to try and  get his ring off

-khushi! Don’t remove it! I want you to think while it’s on your finger!

-what does this ring mean?

She asked looking right at his eyes…those dark which are devouring her, she never felt that desired before, that protected as much as in danger in his presence

-it means that we are engaged

-but we are not! I just refused

-you asked for time to think!

She looked at him with wide eyes

-no! I didn’t ask for anything!...I…

He puts his hand on her mouth to shut her up

-not now! We will have to talk later, you seem so hungry!

She nodded negatively

-but you don’t eat anything, I refuse to talk while you’re starving

She starts talking while his hand on her mouth, he smiled his irresistible smile and takes off his hand

-please don’t change the topic

-I made pancakes!

-Arnav! It’s serious!

-I want you to eat first, we will talk after!

-I don’t want to eat!

-khushi! I made those pancakes for you!

He was serious

She, silently, obeyed, not because he was serious asking her this but only because she’s really hungry

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After the breakfast, khushi chooses to have a warm long bath as Arnav wasn’t ready to talk, he’s working and refused to drop her back to her apartment

In the warm bath, she starts relaxing

Closing her eyes…she imagined herself as

Mrs Raizada

How to feel when you have a man like Arnav singh raizada as a husband?

She should learn just how to obey because this man will only be able to command!

You eat! You sleep! You marry me! You wear this engagement ring!!

Really?!

She starts laughing…her life is turning to be so funny since the day she followed this man!

Even her body is marked by him and everything in her is reminding her him, his kisses, his hold, his hugs, his slaps…

Ouyyy…

It’s really paining till now…he slapped her bottom mercilessly…monster! And still, he wanted to marry her! What a pervert!

She couldn’t understand ASR’s mind…she knew he wants her body, he makes her understand that he wants only that, from their first night together but when he…asked her to marry him, that was totally strange! No! it was weird!

She can’t be his wife, for numerous reasons, the first is that he doesn’t love her, second, because she can’t even understand what she feels towards him, third, because she was just a simple girl and he’s ASR, the great ASR, he’s rich and successful, she’s nothing but a simple employee who has nothing but her honor, self esteem and purity that she lost already in between his arms

He left her with no other choice than…

To escape…run away from here with all her force and never come back!

She rubbed her finger with the fuming soap in the tub and she could easily take off the engagement ring, right now…but she heard the door got opened

-you’re here…I was looking for you!

The great Arnav singh Raizada wearing nothing but his trousers is the synonym of the word “sexy”…plus, he’s so confident that it could turn to arrogance….

-please go out! I’m just taking a bath

She said trying to keep herself under the soap bubbles

But like he wasn’t hearing anything, he comes further, he takes off the only trousers he was wearing and get on the tub…

She gets up, she wants to leave the tub but it’s only making the situation more sensual

He could have a clear sight of her naked wet body, so, she sits down again

-Arnav! Stop!

She was red as a tomato but not only her cheeks from shyness but also her thighs and bottom and wrists from the previous night and he has to be sorry for that, he concluded

-I’m sorry!

He said with a husky voice, pulling her to him…closer enough to that he could feel her legs coming around his waist…he placed her like that on him…

Feeling her soft thighs on top of his toned ones…in the tight tub, he’s satisfied about this position

They could hear the water drops falling from tub…his body was enough heavy to make the water flowing from each side

Khushi looked amazed before his powerful body and his hands holding her waist

-sorry for what?...I can’t even count your mistakes!

He arched his eyebrow

-so, I made so many mistakes?

-every word you say and everything you do are hurting me!

His amused tone disappeared, he looked at her hazel eyes, trying to understand what she just said

-what?

He asked firmly…his hands left her waist, he runs his hand throw his hair nervously

-you think I’m just a doll in between your hands and this thought really hurt me, Arnav

She added looking straight at his eyes…so angry that the fire she saw in them make her partially regret what she said

-I never considered you as my toy, khushi…in bed, it would be different, I want you to be mine, fully

-not only in bed, you want me to be yours always

She showed him the ring

-is there anything wrong in it, if I want you to be mine?

-it will not be wrong if I accept this, but I can’t accept to be your doll

-correction; I asked you to be my wife

-to control me the way you want!

-yes!

He said coming so close, he wanted to kiss her, she turned her face

But if he wasn’t able to kiss her mouth, he bitted on her cheek

She looked at him angrily

-what are you doing?

-punishing you, showing you the real meaning to get hurt! I never wanted to hurt you

-but you did

-enough! Stop your nonsense right now! Your eyes are revealing you to me, you can’t deny something you’re feeling deep inside your soul

-my…my eyes…what they are revealing?

She asked looking at him

-everything khushi…everything

He said with a merely softer voice

He was angry but when she asked that question innocently, he gives up on his anger and leaned to kiss her cleavage

-no, Arnav…no…

She said cupping his face and making him look up at her

-tell me why should I marry you?

She asked him

-I don’t have to tell you, you have to find out by yourself

She smiled finally….he said it in a way that she couldn’t resist but to smile, this way means something…

So, she has to find by herself…

-look at me!

He ordered

Their eyes locked

-I want to make love to you…may I?

Khushi’s heart stopped beating

-Arnav Singh Raizada doesn’t make love, he…he only fu**s

She mumbled out of breath

desire chapter 14

~Your Weakness is my Strength, but your Desire is my Fate.~

-p…punish me ?

-yes!

He said pushing her further against the wall, pulling her petticoat higher to the level of her waist and he comes to lift her harshly…on a way, her legs are around his waist

-you’re lying at me!! You’re lying at Arnav singh raizada! ??! and that car was about to crash you? ...I want to know why?! Why khushi?

-no one of your business and…leave me! Leave me now!

She heard him open the zip of his trousers

Shocked, she doesn’t understand what’s really happening…

But only that sound of his hand spanking her thigh and putting her panties apart, make her conscious of it

What???!!!!

That’s why he positioned her this way and that’s why he told her he would punish her…he will force himself on her!

It’s true, she thought about another kind of punishment but this…this punishment wouldn’t do with her desire for him…she’s already wet for him because he was touching her everywhere and she gets wetter by his harshness and this behavior…

-are you insane to…

One harsh thrust and he was in…inside her

Her eyes get wide and she looked at his dark gaze…he has never been that harsh on her!

-no words! Only answers to my questions! Why you were so sad, angry when Nani mentioned my marriage?

-I never felt this way! I will be happy if you get married, I will come and dance in your shadi!

She said ironically

His hand spanks her bottom hard this time…and he thrusts harder

She bits her lower lip to not scream from pleasure and pain and shows to him how much she’s affected

-what are you doing?

She asked looking down at their hot connection…her voice was just a whisper, a sensual whisper

-say the truth once and I will stop!... Are you jealous?

-of course not!

Smack on her thigh and a deep thrust…she moaned and she clings to his neck

This punishment becoming hotter and she’s not able to control the situation anymore

-you make me really angry! Stop lying! And stop resisting me like this!

He held her closer to him and bits her shoulder

-you don’t have any right over me!

she said to hurt him, to make him stop, to make him conscious of the situtation

-yes! I have all the rights!

He nibbled on her neck

-no!

She closed her eyes

-yes!

He thrusts deeper but so slowly

-no!...ahhh…

She moaned…she knew how much she’s weak…but couldn’t resist

-yes!

He takes one of her nipples inside his mouth and sucked hard

-ok yes…ok…

She admitted finally, pushing his head away

He held her harshly and looked at her…his punishment  is on!  but this time he walked with her on his arms and he throws her harshly to the bed…getting out of her warmness…he sighed…

-I damn have all the rights on you!

He barked out

She’s not conscious and can’t understand what he’s doing to her! First, punishing her and now nothing???!!!

-why?

She asked

-because…(he stopped, looked at her deeply thinking) because you should marry me!

Huhhh???!!!

This is the most awkward marriage proposal ever!!!???!!!

Is it really one?! or did he said it because the idea crossed his mind right in this moment???

She’s half naked

He’s half naked

They were…making out in a strange way seconds back and now this??!!!

And it wasn’t a proposal

She should! Should marry him!!!???!

She looked at him with lost eyes…and then she doesn’t know what but…she couldn’t control her tears anymore....she wanted to cry but no...not now...

He comes above her and pushed her to lie on bed with him on her, she resisted hitting his chest

-what do you think I’m??! why you’re doing this to me?...are you…making fun of me now??! Seconds back you said that…that you refuse the marriage idea and now…

she starts crying

She sobbed while biting his chest savagely, wanting to go away…to run away

He waits for her…he stares at her...he doesn't let her go...

-you think I’m making fun?!

-you know that I’m alone in this world, that like any girl, I dream of my marriage day…and you made jokes about this!?

-who the hell made you understand I’m joking about this?! I…Arnav singh raizada wants, seriously, firmly, legally marry you!

she looked at him, he's serious?! he's! he's serious!

-my answer is no!

-you have no choice!

he's hurt now...

She looked at him with wide eyes

-this is your punishment! You will have to marry me!

-this is not a joke!

-this is not a joke!

He confirmed

-why do you want to marry me?!

-to have all the rights on you!

-is this a good reason?

-yes!

-you don’t understand anything from marriage!

-you will teach me!

He said seriously

-it’s not that simple! You don’t even love me!

He silently looked straight at her eyes…like…to make her understand that he does love her but he won’t tell! He won’t…she knew

-but I have you already! You’re mine khushi! But it seems that this idea didn’t enter your mind yet!

-why you asked me just now? Why not from the start?

-you said that I’m nothing to you! That I don’t have any right! And I want to have all the rights!

-you’re dreaming!

She challenged him

-of course I will marry you khushi!

-no! stop repeating this!

-you have to be my wife as soon as possible!

He finished that sentence and she gives him a hard slap

Shocked, he held her shoulders hard too…she’s scared now…he’s hurting her…he’s insane from the moment he picked her from that road

-never…

She whispered

-why?

-I won’t be your wife!

-why?

-you don’t…you refused this idea from the start

-I changed my mind!

-just to control me and to control my life?

-yes! Just to have an eye on you…to control you, to have you in my bed, whenever I want wherever I want…just to make sure you’re safe…just to stop your jealousy and convince you that you have also all rights on me, and if you want you could have me whenever and wherever you want too!

She looked at him with her shocked gaze

-all what you want is my body?

-all of you!

-it’s just physical attraction!

They looked at each other for a moment…

He seems to hesitate and then cupped her face

-I can’t live without you, do you hear me?

-…(she's silent)

-do you understand?

-….

-if that’s physical attraction than yes!

-…sobs…(her tears are touching now his palms and he tried to wipe them with his thumbs)

- you were about to kill yourself! You made me lose my mind by your behavior…you didn’t resist when that car was about to crush you, right? I was about to lose you damn it and…I need to keep my eyes on you, always…but you wouldn’t accept because you said that I don’t have any right and I want to marry to have those rights! marry you legally!

Sobs

She cried her heart out while he’s staring at her, just waiting for her answer

-why you would marry someone like me? Someone who is…

His hand above her lips, he stopped her

-don’t you dare!

- but I want to marry someone for life time

She said

He glared at her

-I’m not the one for you!

She added

-I want to do something bad to you, something you will never forget!

He harshly spreads her legs and placed himself in between

She silently looked at his face…his dark gaze again made her shiver , he penetrates her like this again…and… Suddenly, she felt the pleasure coming again from deep inside her body…her heart biting so fast, feeling him inside her…she moaned

-don’t dare look away! This time it’s to make you understand that you’re the one for me!

And this is becoming dangerously hotter…because this man is thinking to marry her and this is…

even thinking about the reasons…doesn't stop her desire to have him also all to herself!

she’s the one for him?!!

He’s making love to her possessively now

Pain of heart and pleasure melt to each other gave her such desire to join him in this sinful game…

She looked at him

She starts moving, following his moves

He looked at her, not believing this reaction now

He wanted to be harsh, he wanted to show her his bad side, he wanted to hurt her to show her how much she hurt him and to show her that all what she said is wrong but here…

Her lips are parted lightly and she’s enjoying his forced assault on her…

He closed his eyes…

He doesn’t know how much he desires this woman

What he felt when he saw her in danger

What he felt when he saw her tears, when he saw her sadness

What he felt when she talks about separation

When she reminds him that she doesn’t belong to him!

It made him insane, angry and hungry for her…to feel her fully…to have her forever…to marry her! Marriage…yes…isn’t it the only way to make her his forever?

he's ASR and if marriage is the only solution for him, so, be it!

Khushi is unable to understand herself at this moment…she hates him for all this, she loves his way and harshness same time…and the idea that he was worried for her…makes her forget about all…but this marriage…

-say yes!

-it’s not a joke! We don’t propose …oh…this way…

-I’m not the romantic guy khushi!  I know one thing! I want to keep you with me…

-I’m not your doll or slave!

-no...but my wife!

-ahhh

he pentrates her deep and harsh...she couldn't control her body which is under his own control!

-yes! your moans are way better than your denial!

-Ar…Arnav…

-I like it... when you moan my name!

Together they reach the seventh sky…and all panting, they kept looking at each other for some more time and then

-marry me!

She looked at him silently

-you will answer me…so soon!

He added and gets up, he disappeared a little and comes again, she wears already her petticoat and adjusted herself

He held her hand and he makes her sit…she moaned in pain…and then blushed…looked at him angrily

-lie down!

-no! no more!

-lie down khushi!

He said softly this time

And she obeyed…

He pulled her petticoat high to the level of her waist

She wants to resist his touch but she was so weak to even speak for now

He takes a look at the skin he spanked when he was making love to her, he was harsh and he pulled her harshly on her thighs and arms…it’s so red…she has sensible skin

He tried to touch but she moaned in pain again, he doesn’t imagine to cause this

He then leaned and kissed it so softly …every red mark

-I’m not sorry! I not sorry at all to make this to you because I felt more pain seeing you lost in front of that car! And listening to your lies, I lost my mind!

She was about to get up to face him but he stopped her

-stay still

-what are you trying to do to me?

-what a husband do in this case! I’m caring for you!

He has no intention to hurt her but to punish her he wants to do more…ravish those butts and this body, eat her up  to that next time she would never try to make herself in a danger situation just because she’s feeling upset…to that next time, she will never think to deny him

 He just starts to pause an ointment, caressing her skin delicately but she’s hiding her pain moaning and the fact that she’s ready to be under him again

She begged him to stop and told that this really embracing her

-I just saw every part of you! I know your body very well! And I would be your husband!

She’s silent now, staring at him as he cured her...finally a moment of pure calm...they forget about all for a short moment

-I love your skin…it’s so soft and smooth…and this…is all mine!

-that’s why you tried to make it pain and all red

-It will be this way if you make me angry again!

He said adjusting her clothes delicately

Their eyes meet

It doesn’t pain anymore like by magic

She looked at him with her beautiful hazel eyes

-are you ok?

He asked and she could recognize the kind Arnav again

She nodded positively

-don’t do this to me anymore!

He said warning

-do what?

He held her hand and brings to his mouth, kissing her palm

-, I want you to be honest with me! And tell me if you really want to accept my marriage from another woman!

she looked the other side, bitting her lower lip, controlling her nerve...

just by the mention of it

-than you should marry me!

she looked at him

-our relation will not last!..I'm not supposed to marry you!

-do you want me to punish you again! This time, I will be more severe! I will make sure, you will not be able to even lie on bed!

Desire : New chapter

Note: I know that you all not intersted in this FF but still... :/

Arnav was angry…

He doesn’t imagine finding khushi here in RM…it takes him by surprise, she doesn’t inform him…

He knew very well that khushi is Anjeli’s friend but still, he doesn’t appreciate when they are all united and laughing like this…

For him, they are obviously talking about some guy…fangirling about a handsome actor and this make him mad…

He could hear them giggling and whispering “but look at him…he’s…”

And once, they saw him coming inside the living room, they stop their whispers and look at him innocently

-bahai? You come?...hi!

-hi!

-Namaste!...Arnavji!

She sounds like she doesn’t even know him…she’s not even looking at him…

He wants to push her closer and to kiss her…but he knows that he can’t! before his sister…he just gestured by his head

-what are you doing?

He asked anjeli…

-bahai! We are watching a salman khan movie and also…you have to leave this room please!!

-leave this room?...why?

-bahai! We are talking…some really girly talks that you didn’t need to know!

-really?

That’s the first time, Arnav doesn’t leave…he’s used to not even stand there for more than one second but today, he wasn’t ready to disappear…

Nani comes with tea and snacks for the girls and when she saw Arnav, she smiled

Arnav comes to her…he kissed her forehead and khushi went to nani too and took the plate from her hands…

-Naniji…why to bring this by yourself?...if you just called us

-it’s ok my dear…it makes me happy when I take care of each one here by myself!

Khushi smiled

-thank you Naniji…for everything!

Nani smiled back…

-no thank you because you decided to stay here for the night! I don’t want you to ever leave…it’s not good for you to live alone khushiji…it’s better if you come and stay here!

Nani said out of care for khushi and then she takes place next to Anjeli on the sofa…

Stay here for the night?!!! …Arnav’s mind stop working for awhile!

-Naniji…I’m really comfortable in my own apartment…the neighborhood is calm and secure…you don’t have to worry about me!

Khushi smiled but she was troubled

Nani is so innocent…if she just knew…

-khushi! come on! Let’s go to my room! I have so much to show u!

-but let’s take the tea together!

Nani said stopping them…

Anjeli and khushi nod and sit back next to Nani…Arnav sits there too with them…

They start having their tea and Arnav his coffee…

And finally, he looked her side, his eyes ate her…he doesn’t leave her…khushi blushed she wasn’t able to breath, she wasn’t able to look at him but she could feel his gaze on her….

Please…please…take away your eyes…khushi thought

-Arnav beta?

Arnav looked at his nani

-don’t say anything against it…but today, I called Mrs. Hana…and I told her that we are going to visit them soon!

-what?...who is Mrs. Hana?

-you know…Mila’s mother!

Arnav arched his eyebrow

-Nani! Not again! please!

-please you Arnav!...I want you to get married soon! if you’re not able to choose a wife! Well, I’m here for this! I find Mila such a beautiful woman…she’s great...and you meet her before, try to remember!

-I don’t remember Nani! I don’t even want to remember!

Khushi’s heart was beating so fast, hearing this conversation; she hoped that she has a magic power to disappear…

Arnav will get married soon with such a beautiful, perfect woman…

Mila…she knew her…she’s perfect!

Nani chooses the best for her little son!

Oh god…how much she needs to run away

She gets up

-Naniji…

-hmm? Yes?

-I need to go now…I mean I forget that I have an urgent work for tomorrow morning!

-tomorrow is Sunday!

Anjeli answered

-even if it’s Sunday, I have to be in office by 7…I have to go! I remember I have work to do…Naniji…please forgive me…Anjeli…I will come back…maybe tomorrow, ok?

Anjeli nodded with a sad puppy face

Khusi greets them and almost runs away…

She walked away as fast as she could…she doesn’t know what happened to her…but she couldn’t bear the talks…about his marriage…

About his soon to be wife or whatever!

How Nani could think about all the girls and not her!

She’s not a girl who could fit a family like Raizada family! She couldn’t be Arnav’s wife!

She never thought about this and never will think about this but if he gets married…

Oh god!

A strange pain gained her heart and she stopped walking, leaned on a wall to take a pause

She realized that she’s all sweating and breathing heavily

She wasn’t walking, she was running…

It’s so difficult to definite her emotion right now: she’s lost, she’s missing him, she’s hating him, she won’t see him again, never go back to RM…forget RM… forget ASR

What happened?

Is this jealousy?

No!

If this is jealousy it means that she has more than desire for Arnav

It means she’s in…

In love????

Never!

It couldn’t be! It’s impossible

There is no future for this love!

So, it’s better to deny it, to stop thinking this way like a poor girl!

Arnav has never been her and he will never belongs to a girl like her!

He will never reciprocate this, for him, she’s nothing but a woman with whom he could satisfy himself!

-KHUSHIIII…stop! What happened khushi?

She couldn’t see him clearly, she realized she’s crying…tears come down like that…and she doesn’t even realize

-no! nothing!

She tried to smile

-you’re crying?

-oh…no…something stuck in my eyes…why you’re here?

-you get out like that!

-oh!...I have work!

-I called you…yesterday!

-I…

She was embraced because of the night he slept with her and eased her pain

-never mind! Let me drop you to your home!

-no!...I better…take a taxi! Or walk…I need some fresh air!

-khushi! what happened?

-nothing! I promise!

-khushi…but I’m sure there is something! Your face is pale, you decide to spend the night with us and then, you said you have work to do…it’s the weekend, I’m sure there is no work, you’re just…are you jealous?

-jealous?...me?...no! no!...this is…

-I will not marry anyone khushi! I’m not ready for this yet!

-I don’t care…I know already all that! I have just to go!

-let me drop you!

-please! No! I’m tired! I need to be alone!

She just turned around and starts walking away, leaving Arnav singh Raizada behind…deciding inside that she will never meet him after this evening…

She couldn’t!

It was over…she can’t continue like this…she’s not like other girls who could accept this situation forever…

She was thinking…tears stopped her from seeing while she’s walking in the road and she doesn’t know what happened after…

She doesn’t hear the car which is coming her way…ready to crush her…

And…

Alone and all sad…she doesn’t even think to save herself and react by just stepping back quickly…

She lets it be!

She closed her eyes…

After all, there is no way possible to be safe…the car was running fast, she’s in the middle of the road…

She waited the crush calmly and then…

Something really hard pulled her away…within a second…like by magic…

A miracle!

The miracle’s name was: ASR…

Breathing heavily, she clutched the collar of his shirt hard…

She smelled his scent with all her force

It was insane!

It wasn’t love!

There is more…something so intense ravaging her, her soul, heart and body…

And suddenly, nothing around, outside this hold has any importance

It was only her and him…in the middle of this road…

-are you crazy, damn it!

He’s screaming angrily but pulling her to him with all his senses…

-do you want to die?

His screams could barely be heard by her

-you’re just insane! If I’m not there, you would be dead right now! F*ck! F***! That damn car!

His arms were almost breaking her

-it’s all nonsense! Damn it! you’re crazy!...khushi!

He kept repeating the same words out of nervousness and then he just lifted her…

In front of so many people she guessed but she was hiding her face on his chest

She knew now that she’s inside his car

He ordered his driver to drive instead of him…and he sits with her on his lap in the back side of the car…

He doesn’t mind the presence of the driver…he kept holding her silently now…

-am insane…

She murmured

-sh!

He puts his finger before her lips

-will talk after!

He was hell angry…his eyes were fire

she starts to be scared now…

now that her mind comes back to work as normal…

and they were on a way different from her home destiny…

*******

When they arrived to that farm house, it was already night time…

Arnav lifted her right to a dark bed room…

-is that one of your so many territories?

-still I didn’t give you the right to speak!

Arnav said harshly, throwing her to the bed

She looked at him shocked…her eyes got wide…

-w…what?

-you shut up and I’m serious!

He wasn’t joking, she could feel it…she wasn’t able to speak any other word…

She just looked at the way, he takes off his shirt…

-you know why I bring you here? In a desert place?...no! (he gestured her to shut up when she’s about to speak) it’s to ask you one question and I want a honest answer! If I don’t have my answer! I will punish you!

She listened to all and then she starts giggling

He waited for her to finish

-why you left like this? Why You were in that state? Was it just because Nani mentioned the marriage?

Her smile vanished

-you answer yes or no!

She bitted her lip

-no! of course not! What do you think you are?!

-are you sure?

-yes!

-so according to u, I’m nothing at all?

-you just go and marry anyone you want!

He comes further to her and she doesn’t move back…

Desire 12

Desire 12

What is she wearing?

This dress on her was just made to make him lose the last part of his sanity…

He looked at her as she opened the door for him

They looked at each other…

It’s like an electric current passed between them

-you don’t want me to enter?

He finally asked with his husky voice

-hmm?

She’s not sure she heard him right, she’s too busy checking him out too

-you like what you see?

-like you like what you see!

-that’s a good point! Do you want me in?

-please…

She said walking back to give him space to enter her territory

-so, here is your home!

-yes!...Welcome!

He looked at her and suddenly, pulled her to him…catching her lips with his…

Closing the door behind with his back before he deepened the kiss the more

That was intense…

He missed her already

God…

What to do?

She was his this morning…but now…he needs her again…he needs to feel her…

When they are out of breath…she just smiled to him and bitted her lower lip…it was more to taste him more in her lips…

That toxic kiss…

She walked back

-…come in…

She said holding his hand and guiding him to a sofa…

Her little apartment is so warm and welcoming…

Arnav looked at how clean her place is and how every detail was special and personal

From the light grey curtains to the white soft sofa they sit in…

She handed him a cup of a golden drink…

He drinks it and looked at her:

-I know your favorite drink!

She said proudly as he arched his eyebrow and smiled

-I remembered that in every party in RM, you drink the same thing…this kind of wine…isn’t it?

-how you bought this? This is so…

-yes! it’s damn expensive! But…it’s worth it! for you!

-worth it…

He repeated and made her come closer

-you know my favorite drink?

He asked

-hmmm

She nodded, he was holding her hand and She felt his hand tightened the hold the more…she loved the way he holds her hand….she loved it!

-are you hungry? I prepared the dinner which is so simple…it’s because I’m not a great cooker, I’m trying…

She pouted, he smiled…at the way she’s talking, it was like they are a real couple…

Are they a real couple now??? He prefers not to think about it for now

-….you guess what I cooked

He was so amused…he smirked and without answering her, he just leaned and kissed her bare shoulder

-Arnav? Any guesses?

-about what?

-about the dinner? Which I prepared?

-anything would be surely good!

-don’t be so kind! I will get used to it!

He laughed…

-so?...you guess the dinner!

-hmm…something simple and cooked by you and I can smell it khushi! it’s pizza!

-woooww…you guess it so fast!

She seems disappointed

He pulled her chin up

-but it’s smelling so good, I want to eat it so fast!

She felt proud, held his hand and guided him to the dining table…

-really?...then come!

He looked at the romantic way, she’s preparing all this dinner : the table, the candles and then he looked back at her

-what? I just tried to make it look like we are in a restaurant for real

He smiled and sits down

Bits on one slice of pizza

-is it good?

-perfect!

She smiled to him and invited him to taste more

she made so many kinds of pizza…slices with cheese; others are with mushrooms and others with only tomatoes and olives…

Arnav ate from all…khushi prefers the ones with cheese

After dinner, they have their dessert on the sofa of the living room

And the dessert is just vanilla ice cream that khushi added on it chocolate sauce

Khushi switches on the TV

And sits next to Arnav on the sofa

-Anjeli called me, she’s missing me and tomorrow I will visit her in your home!

-we will be glad, Miss Gupta…and I know how much Anjeli is missing you…Nani too

She smiled

-they are my second family…I love them so much too…I have no one but them

-no one but them? Seriously?

She smiled but the smile didn’t reach her eyes

It vanished so fast…

And then suddenly, she hugs him, hides her face against his chest

-what happened?

-nothing…I just…thank you for being here tonight!

He looked straight and deeply at her eyes…

-you know that you don’t have to thank me…I did…what happened khushi?

He asked as he saw her face went pale

-khushi?

-it’s nothing…nothing!...I want to watch a movie with you!

-ok!

He said smiling

she smiled and then her smile vanished again

-khushi?

-it’s nothing!

She went from there for a second…

She’s feeling a huge pain in her stomach…the pain is augmenting…

And she starts to worry…

If this pain is due to her period then…what she goanna tell to Arnav????

And then how she could hide her pain from him????

Even if she will have a painkiller right now, it will not help…

She knows what will happen every time…even so, she had some medicines, hoping it will help and returns to the living room smiling

Arnav starts zapping the channels on TV, in the hope to find a movie but stopped seeing how much khushi was pale and forcing a smile whenever he looked at her

-khushi? the movie is your idea! if you don’t want it, let’s just talk!

He tried to hold her hand but he saw that she used her hand to hold her stomach…her fingers clutch the fabric of her dress and she bitted her lower lip

-khushi???

-Arnav! It’s paining!

-what?...where? here? In your stomach?

His warm hand is in a second holding her hand which is above her stomach

-is it due to the dinner?

He asked worriedly

-you should go!

She said holding his cheek with her free hand

-what? What are you talking about?...khushi! you’re pale! You’re not alright!...let me just call a doctor!

-no! no! ahhh (she moaned from pain)…already…OMG!

She stands up from there and went to her room running…

Arnav followed her but she closed the door…

***********************

When she opened the door finally, she was wearing her pajama

A pink one with hello kitty on it…

She was pale

-khushi?! how dare you close the door!?

He was standing before her, all worried, irresistibly worried, he knocked the door so many times but she refused to open…and now, he’s more worried

-khushi?! are you pregnant?

-what? No…no…

-don’t hide such thing from me!

-Arnav…we made love only since a week, that doesn’t mean I will…no!

-so? Is that because u ate pizza? Or due to the ice cream???

-no!

She bitted her lips as she felt the pain again…she entered her room again and lied on the bed

-so?

He followed and sits next to her, pulling her hair away from her face…

-you should go…I’m …Arnav…Arnav…I’m…

She held her stomach again…

But this time, Arnav pull her hand away and starts massaging her belly with his warm palm…

-you have your period khushi…

-no…no…

She blushed furiously…

-yes…shhh…it’s ok! It’s ok! Khushi! I know you’re a woman! such things could happen any moment

He looked at her amused and caressed her cheek

-no…you’re not supposed to know about this!

She said childishly

-oh really?!

-it’s so embarrassing

She pouted and turned her back to him, laying in the other side of the bed

-what do you think of me khushi? you think I’m a teenage boy who will freak out, knowing you have your..

-No! don’t repeat it again!

She said finally facing him

He leaned and surprised her by a warm kiss on her cheek

-times like that! What could help you, khushi? tell me!

He said seriously, hoping she would tell him

-if…

She hesitated

-tell me anything!

-keep massaging my tummy…

She said looking down, she couldn’t face him anymore, she knows it…it’s so embarrassing

Godddd

-ok!

She couldn’t believe that the great ASR…

The one she meets this morning for an interview…

The one who is commanding a whole powerful business territory is now just massaging her tummy to take the pain away

-like that?

He pressed gently

-yes…please

-is it paining too much?

-so…much…

She’s so pale…

He kept massaging

-is it like that for always

-one time a month…it’s…so painful…always…no help

-try to sleep! It will help…

-hmm

-close your eyes!

-please…stay! Stay for tonight!...just stay here...

-I’m here! I'm here khushi! I'm not going any where!

He said gently…she couldn’t believe this…

Him…

In her room, her bed…

He’s there not to love her…or to fuck her like he always said but just…

He was there to massage her tummy…

Because she has her period and it’s so paining

He’s there and the pain wasn’t huge anymore

His warm palm was easing it gradually…or it is due to the pills she has moment back, she doesn’t know…

She’s sure it is him…

He was there…

How it helps!!

she felt safe…it’s better…she doesn’t know how she slept…

**********

How a woman could be so pretty, so hot, so sexy taking your breath away and at the same time too cute, childish, innocent making your heart beats so fast…

He smiled seeing her sleeping so deeply now…

he kissed the crook of her neck as he lied finally next to her in the bed

The bed was so little to take them both…but he kept her in his arms carefully…

He switches the light off…and slept next to her